Condemned with my sins,
Shamelessly living this absurd life,
Getting all reasons to break down
I see myself as something so vile.
I look at my reflection and
See it looking at me with those guilt filled eyes
A moment of mortification,
And then hey, I just saw it smile.
Oh! That devilish smile, I so damn recognize
And those eyes that now show a demon inside.
I could see me but it was someone else that I de-scry.
I have this pain killing me,
But I see me laughing like crazy,
This pain wants me to cry out loud
But I hear me shouting insanely.
Shouting to the world to ‘Fuck off’,
Shouting to the little girl that just died,
Shouting to stop me from hearing any voices,
‘Kill me because I am toxic’
‘Kill me because I am coming for you’
Insane, I am now
I don’t see love
Hatred is the home I just found.
Till my mind explodes
Till my eyes shut down
I don’t wanna feel anymore
I wanna be like this for sure
Take me high, Make me smile. . .